Leave for now

I'm so spin out with all of my bustles.... I've been working now for about 4 months at LJ Discovery Hotel Surabaya as a Guest Service Agent (What a very tiring job to always standing, and also take responsibility bout' cashiering ---> what a very scary things to be handled coz I've been wrong posted and I replace the money about 125.000 rupiahs).

I do tired... i wanna quit, but I still hold on. At least my mother accept the face that maybe someday I'll quit it because I've been blamed for the error that I didn't make....

Beside that, I really want to finish my thesis immediately, so I have to leave blogging for now.......

another Loneliness

This day, as usual, i went into library of Industrial Engineering.
No accompanies
No purpose
Wanted to do my chapter-3 of thesis, but the internet's temptation still bugging me...

My Absent

Hadehhh.....

It's been a while that i leave this blog. Wonder why i always couldn't enter to my account. So I just left it. Now, I remember bout my friend's blog entitle yuli-astanti.blogspot.com (which more story about her narcissistic--- peace sista!! hehe   :)  ). That keeps me curious about the failure that occurs to me couldn't enter. I try another way today, not by entering www.blogspot.com but I typed my blog address first then next to sign in from that page..... Fiuuhh.... finally I meet u again dear blog of mine.

my Sister's Figure when she was about 3 Y.O. (Now 8 at next July 14th 2011)

So many things happened these past times.....

• My father will be transfer to work at Jakarta, I wonder why my parents planned to buy a new car and start to make a new debt of a new house too (which I know recently as an Apartment, not House, but it cheap kind, I think it's only a flat called RUSUNAMI---> Rumah Susun.... I don't know what the NAMI stands for). While the installment for the Sukolilo Dian Regency's House ain't over yet and still about 27 months more to go. Mom said that Dad will accept about 170 Millions Rupiahs CASH to pay a new car (what a very awkward account to give----> that's only can buy the compact car nowadays which is my parents planned to buy is TOYOTA YARIS. Whaatttt???? I'm ashamed if I drive Daihatsu Xenia--Thank God Mom Switch it with Honda City, but if we buy Yaris, that means a decline, moreover if the whole 4 members of the family in it, seriously i said to my mom, whether we go to mall someday, I just will get out the car first and not admit come out from that car. HAHAHAHAHHAAA....)..... Aaaaaannnnddddd..... Dad will also receive 30 Millions Rupiahs in LOAN as a down payment to buy that flat! (I wonder my Dad will receive raise or not @ his Salary--Hope so, very very hope so), and he can also get additional 30 Millions (if i ain't misheard) neither to renovate or buy (I forget which one). The CONCLUSION of this point is: I don't know this is quite a good story or the contrary.
• Mom always want to rent the house at Sukolilo, I always don't wanna do it (but I never have the courage to fight my mom opinion since that she's an anger). I have so many thoughts on my mind, I really want to work soon at LJ Discovery Hotel, but soon I figure out that Mom doesn't want me to to live in Surabaya coz I have to take over of my little sister's assisting activities. Well, if I have to take the 3 jobs of them (study, work, take care of my sister), I have to sacrifice one of them, I want to work (so that I have my own money- but it won't start till august) and study of course (cause i just least thesis and one optional choice subject).
• Still Confused about my thesis project, what methods should I use, I would like to develop this Fuzzy-AHP (Analytic Hierarchy Process) and ANN (Artificial Neural Network) from Yasanur Kayicki's of From www.sciencedirect.com. My professor too many said agree with my plan, that what makes me nervous to find the gap of my research (I'm scared that that ain't matter to be a thesis).

(inspired by Yuli to add this picture @ my blog)

My Target

I wish I can get all of this in a year or less!!
GO!!!

Description of HEVAR

I always describe myself as:

• one thing which is branch into three, and

• three characters

Please see below __________________________

Segundo, today's activities

This day, I started by waking up as usual, turned my TV on, listened some kind of music that I abandoned, I mean the music that I haven't heard in a long time, I ever used it for my phone's ring tone, it reminds me of the TV show name VH1 use the song as the their theme, call it "Girl Just Wanna Have Fun by Cyndi Lauper", that was my bath theme music of the day just right after I listened to Madonna "American Pie". I repeated into a single repetition for Cyndi during my bathing time this morning.

Waiting for the message in my phone from someone that I expected since we have a discussion last nite and arrange our meeting, but i thought that my proposal is being rejected then there's no more message drop by @ my inbox. OK!! Back in reality then! I have to keep survive!!

Next, I just prepared myself to go to Campus. Even tough I take this semester off, but I still daily come to campus to get some Journals, e-books, or just check out my facebook in the internet. This day as usual (it has become my usual by this monday), the first place that would be my destination is the "Industrial Engineering Library". I directly met Iir & Putri, they sort of did their class task. I really happy that I've been free from any compulsory-class, I really Thank God that I've passed all that kind since that I'm not a Bachelor of Industrial Engineering but Materials & Metallurgical Engineering instead but I got quite good GPA, not like some kind of my friends that have their GPA decreased (75% of my friends that entered of the same time with me).

I always feel lucky when it comes to study, but I don't feel so about to get a Job, hmph... hope that it ain't continue after I graduate from here.

Back to the activity, then I just surfed the internet, meet some other friends, until I am now @ Logistic & Supply Chain Management Lab., next to the Library, I fight for the thesis, getting some tutorials from my junior, but he's my mentor coz he has been expert in this department and the topic "Sudiyana Wirasambada". He explained to me about his Final Project, because we study the same topic for our thesis project, I shall thankful too because back in the time that I was blank about thesis, he came up and offered me the Topic, and now I'm listed as Professor I Nyoman Pujawan, Ph.D's supervised student.

Ow.. then I have to love this, and I shall love this : "CITY / URBAN LOGISTICS"

try to get the preface of it by clicking it.

www.citylogistics.org

Gran Apertura (Grand Opening)

Wow!! Finally...

It's been a long time that I desired to have a blog, now is the time that I really work it out (means that I did it seriously).

In this moment, I'd like to greet my Mom @ home: "Hi, Mooomm!!!"

Hope you well soon, because she said to me yesterday that she got ill.

Speaking of Mother, I remember another one, the most beautiful mother on earth, the most humble and popular person in the world in that specified times, the People's Princess as what they usually called her, she is: "Lady Diana Spencer".

Last night I opened my MS Publisher, and put ten of her picture best of my opinion. She looks gorgeous, moreover @ her wedding day, she looks really innocent. But.. everytime i saw that picture that i created by arranging her picture, the more i remember my mother, the more sadness that i felt on my heart and questioned : "Why it has to happened so soon!" But I'm a huge believer that God took her soon so that He can keep her @ Heaven. Even tough that I always seem not in a Harmony with my mother, but I love her so much that I can't imagine what will happened to me if she is taken now by ALLAH.

NO!! that my answer! I wanna see my Mom Happy by pleased her and give her everything she always want, I want to go Hajj with her, I want to take her travel around the World, I want to buy her so many Dubai's Gold and Diamonds.

I love you Mom! Here is my mom's pic next to Lady Diana.

                the picture of Lady Diana Spencer

 

                            My Mom's Picture